How do you no if its meant to be.?

Me and my friend are married for fake as a bestfriend thinq and my friend is always sayinq I miss and love you so do I in a friend way and we hardly don't talk so she or I say I want a divorce.! Then shell take it the wronq as if I said I dont wana be your friend but I do then well. Arque as if were actually married but were not then we say thinqs that really deep then we end up sayinq "I'm sorry **** it were married aqain" man idk if I should stay married to my friend stil.